I wanted nothing more than to love you. I wanted so much for everything to go right. I wanted to kiss and hold hands and share lives. To be in love with you, to have you in my life. Who knows what went wrong? Maybe it was the space. Maybe it just wasn’t the right time. Maybe it would have been wise to wait. Maybe I’m not sure of myself. Maybe I’m not ready. Maybe you needed to love yourself more. Maybe you weren’t ready. I can’t say I really know, because I guess I’m not wise enough to know. Maybe everything was just a little too daunting, and maybe I got scared.
I guess we shouldn’t think about those kinds of things. I’ll look forward to the future, because I don’t know what it holds. Aren’t people funny? People change, we make such sudden decisions, we make mistakes, we cry, we decide that things are right, we become something better, we become something worse. Usually, things sort themselves out. Don’t perturb yourself with the past. Value the present and look forward to the future. That’s hard though, isn’t it? The future is so far away. An hour, a day, a week, a month, a year. We think it’s so long. But what’s that thing that people always say? “Wow, it’s been a year?? Where did the time go??” Just watch. Just wait. You’ll see where the future takes you.